This can be difficult when your heart is completely shattered by a boy you thought cared. 14 months and it takes a good week for him to find someone new. Sucks to be me, haha.
Funny to read those entries from before when I was trying to be more open. Well I’d finally succeeded and eventually I loved him too much. I loved him more, much more than he could imagine loving me. And that’s when he said it didn’t feel right anymore. bye.
Oh well, nothing to do but keep trying.
Aug 09, 2007, 10:48AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
I’m scared of him changing his mind. What if one day he decides there’s someone better? There’s someone better, but I don’t want there to be… I want him to want ME.
I wish we could escape together in the BIG ROCK CANDY MOUNTAINS…
Oct 12, 2006, 08:07AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
I’m quite scared of getting hurt, but there is this boy and we’ve been dating for 5-6 months and I think I love him. He helped me through the hardest 2 weeks of my little life in a way no one else could have. He cares, he calls, he tells me nice things. He knows who I am and still likes me. He admits that he looks at other girls and thinks, “oh, they’re attractive,” but then he tries to imagine dating them and knows it wouldn’t be the same… or as good. I’m still scared, I want to be open enough to equal his love, but not too open that I get hurt. I used to love so freely, I don’t know what happen. I used to do whatever I wanted freely. Where did I go? Why won’t my heart be as open as it used to be?
2 weeks… I get to go home in 2 weeks and I will see him. I will also see my ladies run. My two loves… I can’t wait.
Please pray that I am as open as I should be ♥
I want to be FREE again.
Sep 29, 2006, 03:12PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
