limit the alcohol consumption to two

my life seems so much clearer. I think clearer. I am clearer in thought and presence.

drank way too much the other day, woke up feeling really crappy and frankly my head just doesn’t feel right, so no more. No more!

and I have had two glasses of wine last week. and more than like I will have a couple on my night off tomorrow. But beyond that nothing, so I am doing very well.

it is amazing how not being around Gary changes certain habits of mine.

on Gary’s and my anniversary, where I drank a lot of wine, at least a bottle and a half and a big glass of Amarreto and not feeling so good the next day, I have no had a drink since. I feel good about that. I don;t even have a esire to have a drink although there is a big bottle of wine in my closet just waiting for me. Perhpas tongiht I will aloow myself a glass or two.

I have drank in the past to squash feeling and I realize that I could easily have a problem if I was not careful but I know it has to deal with really bad situations. I am feeling better right now. Very few thoughts of Gary coming my way. I feel ready to move on. This vacation came at the right time. (It has also been amazingly sunny for the last two weeks and I couldn;t be happier about that.) I didn;t accomplish as much as I wanted too, but my therapist reminded me that sometimes, it is okay to just be. That is some of what I did. I also cleaned house and the balcony and my room adn freshened things up a bit. Things are better in some ways.

I know I don’t need alcohol and I much rather a good glass of wine or port with a meal, I don;t NEED to drink to relax. I need to remember that. Perhaps I will attend an AL-ANON meeting this week.

only two/three glasses of wine once a week. This week I am on vacation, let’s see fiI can keep this pace, if so then I will call this done. Gary pushed the alcohol so being away from him helps dramatically.

is there is only one night to drink. I had only two glasses of wine this week and last. I am hoping to keep it to that.

I always think that having a glass of wime before bed helps me relax and sleep better, but I have noticed that on those days when I do drink before bed, I am up within 4-5 hours and have a very fitful sleep with difficulty getting aback to sleep when I wake up. I did some investigating and apparently this is often a side effect of drinking before bed. ??

I seem to do a whole lot better with a cup of chamomile tea.

Without Gary in my life, I have very little need to be masking my problems and very little need for wine. I thin I am going to quite drinking for a while.

Three weeks creates a habit, so lets try that and call it done.

today will be day one.

I am sure this is something that will diminish dramatically! In fact I am certain of it.

although I have read that one alcoholic drink a week is a healthy amount but I also heard that a glass of plain grape juice will also do the trick. Has anybody else heard that? How much truth is there in that idea?