success

I am successful, pretty much. I still have goals that will further my success but at this point I would call myself a success. :-)

how I was really close to the American dream of success but as I started writing I realized that there are a lot more missing components that I would have imagined. Once I started listing them, I was overwhelmed by the magnitude of them. Partner, friends, house, job I love, secure retirement plan. Man those are some major pieces.

I guess I am not as successful as I would like to imagine. I am usually a glass half full kind of gal but this was a glass half empty kind of exercise. A wake up call but still not leaving me feel good.

If I turn it around, well, I have a comfortable apartment, good health, great kids who are all healthy and happy. I am a new manager, I have my own office, I make enough money for my current lifestyle, I have a freedom I never felt with y ex husband, I have a great car and modes of exercise, fun leisure equipment ie bike, treadmill, kayak, skis, and great co-workers.

Yes I do have a lot, but is it so bad to want a little more? Interestingly it is more people in my life that I am craving right now. Having just gave up K, that seems like a contradiction. But I am craving the RIGHT people in my life. That is the healthy difference.

The size of your success is only limited by your belief.

that in my quest to accomplish this goal, I am pushing too hard in some areas and my life is not really balanced or enjoyable, it is all about accomplishing this or that goal. I am forgetting to enjoy it. I was going to take 2 weeks vacation and just go to school. I don’t know if I want to do that. I am not sure I can do all of this at the same time. This switch to nights is one thing. I can learn to deal with that it will just take some time to adjust my schedule. The new manager will take at least a year to gather all the skills necessary to be successful. School on top of that is quite a burden. I find this new job so stressful and then to leave work and then add more stress by taking a class is difficult. That leaves no time for the things that allow you to De-stress. That is why I am second guessing this class in May. It will be something to think about. All work and no play makes lovingmex43 a dull girl.

came with a raise that was phenomenal 29 increase!!! I can’t believe it. And another 12 for shift allowance. I am so overjoyed. I have about ten thousand ideas of things to do with this extra money but I don’t even know where to start. I am overwhelmed. I have a long list of items I would like to purchase but also would love to pay off my car loan and student loan, I also want to save to buy a new condo. Where should I begin? student loan and car loan are close to 12K. If I could save that kind of money I would have more than enough to buy a Condo. Maybe it is not that tough of a decision. Buy the condo, I will still be making the kind of money I need after the fact and can pay off student loan and car then. Why continue paying rent.

spent a lot of time on the floor this week. People are not used to that. The previous manager was very busy with other areas of his job which makes it good for me in a way. They will get used to seeing me. I think things are going pretty well so far. I am sleeping that is good.

every morning. It is making it hard for me to concentrate on anything else. I may have to dump my Calculus class as I am not keeping up. Need to bust butt with my reading for stats as well. But every time I sit down to do homework I think of another thing that I should be doing with my job. Crazy.

is getting my own office. I just went by and they are painting it right now, Not one of those ugly yellow offices but nice chocolate brown. I am thrilled.

I need for the frame for my window. I figure a square frame covered in dark fabric will block out the light. Handles on each side to slide it in and out of the wall every day for ease. Sleep is the most important part of succeeding at this new job.

for another management position.

Scary, I think this time I made it.