***Future Goals***

I usually re-evaluate the year, check how I did in retrospect of last years goals, clean aware the clutter and begin anew. I am having a difficult time doing so this year. Although I pared down my goal list I am struggling. I registered for a class but it will really interfere with my sleeping during the day working nights. I am not sure if just focusing on getting in better shape and staying sober would not be a better couple of goals to work on. I get so overwhelmed with school and them lose focus on these other things.

I am struggling on this one.

get married again

save $25,000 for a deposit on a house.

learn to play the cello, I love the sound, it is amazingly meditative.

I think I am trying to hard to concentrate on the NOW that the future is ….... the future.

for my 50th b-day a hot air balloon ride

get my CPA license and find a job as an Accountant

volunteer for a suicide hotline call center

attend an AA meeting (Done and continuing)

get rid of my anxiety (Manageable at this point)

find a great therapist (Done, she is great!)

be confident and comfortable in my own skin

enter a body building competition

feel like I belong in this world

finish decorating this damn apartment so I can enjoy life (as good as it is going to get at this point)

graduate sooner than later

manage the learning process without feeling deprived of a life

a partner who truly loves me and whom I love too – who shares some of my dreams, passions, and can make me laugh

has now come to fruition, so I am kinda hoping that this last one that I put together will have equal success.

have a radiant heat driveway
non stop water heater
solar panels
grow apple and pear trees
learn to hunt
take the hunters safety course
buy a rifle
raise chickens
have a backyard fire pit
waterski
jetski
take those sleds down the mountain in the summer
experience a ropes course
open a small craft studio
have a roadside garden stand
make extra money doing craft tours
learn to tree graft
compost
tap maple trees and boil my own maple syrup
write a set of children’s books
become an accountant
weight under 150lbs again
own large amount of land and have my own cross country ski trail
fall in love with a partner who loves me back, where we both treat each other incredibly well and be very happy.
get through my minor degree
have a Harry Potter marathon
see all my girls happy and fulfilling their dreams
watch my grandchildren grow up and get married
revisit Paris
learn to ride a horse well
take a Florida vacation

a masseuse. There is a school not too far away that offers a series of classes only on the weekends for a total cost of about $7,000. I guess I will continue to buy lottery tickets for this one. But perhaps waiting until I finish my Bachelors degree would be beneficial. Or would it be best to just go and do it right now? Lots to think about.

eat at a new restaurant once a month for all of 2013. I like this.