Why did I feel disappointed and disheartened when my friend called me to say that we could not meet.
Because she is the only person with whom I can share the hell of the marriage I am going through. Because I felt I need support, but why do I need support, am I mentally disabled, cant I think for myself. Dont I have the ability to distinguish abuse from the regular marriage disagreements.
I will admit that I cried after her call. I so look forward to talk and share with her. She is good at giving me courage and perspective. But I realise maybe she thought I was not a good influence on her marriage or her mental well being since she is pregnant. Or she she scare of my crazy STBX calling her in dead of night, how he calls my family.
But in this age people are uncomfortable being themself in person, we are more comfortable being ourself on the internet. Its time now to stop looking at my friend for reassurance of my decisions.
