To fall in love: True love! Crazy love! The love i want to have till my last breath.

i want a girlfriend soooo bad. i dont wanna just go to a club and pick someone up i want to fall in love like the movies.. i miss my ex gf ashley. and i keep havnig fantasies (not sexual) of her being here with me.. im in such a lovesick mood! and i dont wanna get over it i just wanna fall in love again.

i dont know whats wrong with me right now but im trying to listen to emo sad music…. anyone have any good emo music. damn im so heartbroken and over what i think im just missing my girlfriend or maybe im jsut trying to find SOMEONE who i knew that loved me.. god i want to be held in someones arms, kissed passionately, stare into someones eyues deeply. om,g im so romantic im falling apart from all this.. i feel lifeless and like ill never find this one person who i can share my lvoe with! :( i dont know how to express it more… damn

oh my gooooooooddddddddddddddd i dont know what to do with myself anymore…. i feel like a pile of mush because im sooo in love with the idea of falling in love i jsut neeeeeed someone i love and to love with all my heart like i didn with ashleyyyyyy why do i feel so alone in the worlddd

i can’t take this anymore i can’t. i’m sick of being alone by myself, like all the time it seems i just need that love so bad. like my heart longs for it and it is so heartbreaking to be alone. i can’t stand it, i just want to lie in someones arms, be kissed, look into someones eyes, if only for a moment. im sick of sitting here wishing i want it. its all a fantasy to me because it doesnt feel like ill ever find this true love this love i am longing for that stirs in my heart all my life. and if i try to explain to people no one gets me no one udnerstands how i feel what this all mans to me. people take it so lightly. it hurts. i hope some of you udnerstand

im so fuckin restless and emotional i think its cuz im needy and need and want someone to love me and give me attention that i want and i have someone who cares so much but ahhh its not enough its never enough i dunno how ill ever get over the fact that no matter how much love someone can give me its never enough and im always left feeling lonely and nt cared about and hurt and restless and needy! and i never want to come off that way to anyone and show then jsut how badly i want them and feel i need them because im sure i will scare them off or be too much and need too much ebcoming possessive and shit, like Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights.

I had this dream and I like defended and stood up for and fell for this guy who resembled a young leonardo dicaprio. OMG why can’t thi dream come true like is there a way I can make my unconscious dreams at night, actually come true. I mean are there people out there who are as eprfect as the people in your dreams. I can control part of therest of my dream but still ahh its only a fantasy a dream. And then theres these two guys: (not in my dream, but theyre all the way on another side of the world) I knowthese guys and I like both of them. One of them we want each other but its hard because we’re not together ahh it sucks. And I got sooo mad at him last night. He was drunk and he was online, he stopped messaging me after a while (maybe he passed out) and I said all this mean stuff I was like I hate you. Bye!!!!!!!, your too busy for me, bla bla. He never wrote back any messages, I checked back, and I don’t want to have hurt him and made him feel like I seriously did hate him. I don’t I was just frustrated. And then this other guy I like sooo much I can’t stop thinking about him, like mroe than this other guy. And I kknow we both are attracted to each other, but hes more subtle and casual about it all not all like I love you I want you, its just you can tell. And hes the sweetest, I don’t know if hes jsut being sweet as a person or a friend or because he cares and wants to be with me. I can’t tell it feels more like hes an older brother to me and a friend but I’m not sure because he could possibly want me jsut as much, he just doesnt take this love thing seriously like hes so mellow and laid back he just goes with the flow if someone comes, they come, if not, they don’t. You know? Can someone help and address these issues I’m having. Serious answers only I don’t need some asshole coming and mocking or not uderstanding how I feel.