Be Myself Again

Ive been thinking that maybe I never stop been me…. It was just that I never had to deal with some thing so sad in my life, but I learned now and I am more secure of my self than before, now I can handle terrible things better…. and now I am sooo happy with my life, well not everything, but with most things… and I have seen the light, I know Im doing things rigth because I am happy doing them.
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I dont know what heppened but I feel really good and happy!!! since I am hanging out with this guy everything is going better…. and I have been a lot with the people that I truly love and that cares about me….. and I feel secure and I dont know… confident… I know I can be who I really am, and have a good time just like before… :)
yayyyyy!!!!
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Im getting very very close to this “friend”... but I dont think we are friends anymore, its something more. And every time I talk to him or think of him or talk about him I feel so happy!!! maybe I think I really like this guy, he makes me feel happy and funny and real, just like I was before!!! :)

I think it is not just me….it is also the people who surrounds me, the people that Ive been hunging out this past 6 month or so…. I realised this because I met someone that makes me really happy and really really laugh and cheers me up every day. it is nice…. :D

ok… I have a new friend, he is really funny and we have a lot in common, the problem is that Im starting to think of him in a romantic way, that could bring me a lot of truble (he is the best friend of my ex), and truble wasnt some thing I did before… thats a thing I picked up the past year… but he makes me so happy!!! and he makes me laugh like I used to… so I dont know if I should continue making progress with him or just back out and evoid problems (meaning no more laughs)....

last year was the best year of my life, I found the best friend, the best boyfriend, the best party people, the best party places, the best way of geting through college… it was great, and everyone thougt I was great, and beautifull even I thougt I was amazing… my life was all that I had ever asked for.. then I got my heart broken by 3 persons that I loved at the same time!!!!!! and every thing went wrong… I stop been fun and having fun… I lost many friends, and for a long time I felt really really alone… so now I want to go back the way I used to be, fun.