Learn to trust again, and trust wisely

I trusted againg… obviously not wisely…. because I ended up with my heart broken… againg…. Im tired of this….

ok, I went on my date… everything great but it seems that I’ll have to wait more and see more… ajajajj…. but its OK, that way I can try to be more patient and get used to not knowing what will happen and live with it!!! I need to relax… really relax… to breath…
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I am about to tell the guy Im dating that this is not going to work… its just because I get paranoid and I get all crazy and I cant have fun…. except when I with him!, its just that I like him so so so much!! he makes me forget everything bad in my life…. well… I dont know…. we have a date tonight, I will just wait and see…
wish me luck!!!!
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It is really getting ugly, I mean the more close I get with people the less safe I feel!!... maybe its because I always always end up in the middle of the storm and usualy I lose all battles… I dont know… Im just tired…. I need to relax and smile!!! now!!!!!
good luck!!

I hate feeling like this!!!! I can’t stop thinking that there is a “mini conspiracy” between my ex and the guy Im dating now!!!!! I keep saying to my self “their up to something, Im sure” but that is crazzy talking!!!! so I have to calm down and relax…. I need to trust people again, or nothing will ever ever be completly real in my relationships.

since my boyfriend dump me I havent been able to trust people again… I really cared about him and he lied and cheated… a few weeks later (when I was still crushed by him) I found out that my mom had lied to me about my uncle having cancer… so I understund why I cant trust any one since that time… my relationships suck because I cant trust the guys that I am with… and I get all paranoid that they are hidding something and they will lie to me… I want to stop thinking in catastrofee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!