so, i’m really confused about the men that have been popping into my life lately. i don’t know if it’s a result of the good or bad things in my life. i would like to think that it’s a result of being more social, living life to the fullest, and everything else on my life. the truth is i wonder if it’s other things. men are men are men are men are men. i have to remember to focus on being a better me and not spending too much time thinking about these guys. i saw benjamin button today and it reminded me to take advantage of every opportunity in life, knowing you have a limited window to do all things. anyhoodiddlydoo, i should remember that there is a greater, bigger plan for me. i hope my life is used to make thing better, not worse.
that two second crush should have lasted no more than that, but seems to be extending to a week. oh, men!
anyway, i always thought there was one guy for me, my soul mate. i still feel that there is just one guy out there for me. most people think i’m either crazy or stupid for thinking that. some people voice their opinions, but others politely guide me in other directions.
i had a really strong feeling about this last guy that i met. i should just think that if it’s meant to be, it will happen. then, i remind myself once again that it’s not the right time. i should pray more. it seems like everytime i pray, a new guy shows up. i take that as a sign b/c it reminds me that there are other fish in the sea and i quickly get over my crush-of-the-day just like a teenager. i need help to keep moving onward in the areas that are working in my life. i have to pray about the men in my life. i hope to find my soul mate at the cost of being alone for the rest of my life. is that ok? i think so. i guess i should pray for these men in their lives and for me in my life. that would probably be a better way to pray.
