Lose 10 pounds

my dad took a photo of me in the garden and I look utterly hideous. I actually look plump, it’s awful. I weighed myself and I’m 10kg/20lb above my dancing weight. OMG.

Emergency! Diet and exercise! Go go go!

I have lost a few pounds (I don’t have a scale but I can tell) over the last week because of guy-crisis-appetite-loss, and realised I like my body being slimmer.

When I start my new job I will get a free swim pass and I should lose weight quite easily. Not working for the past few months has taken its toll on my body and I feel shapeless with no muscle tone. In my previous job I was on my feet all day, plus I cycled to work so along with ballet, exercise was not a problem. I think that is why I get a swim pass for my new job, because it is sedentary.

I’ve realised I haven’t done a thing towards reaching this goal and so it probably isn’t as important to me as I thought it was. I’m not skinny but I’m slim and that is good enough for me as I don’t need to be thin for dancing anymore. I’d prefer to have a goal be about health rather than aesthetics. Wow, I’m really proud of how I’m learning!

Yeah… I miss being ballet thin. Funny how such a small amount of weight makes such a huge difference to self esteem.