Write more

So ever since I started dating my current boyfriend, [6 days = 1 month] , I write so much more than I used to. He writes also so we’re always writing each other things and I write down my feelings and emotions alot more often now. He’s kinda like my inspiration.

<3

so i have i told you yet how amazing you are to me.
how you make me feel on the inside and out.
i get the cold chills and goosebumps when i see you online
and the butterflies in my stomach when i hear your voice.

for all those feeling i possess,
you have no idea what i would do for just one kiss.
you make me want to get in my car and drive for hours
just so i can jump into your arms and feel your lips against mine.
even if it was just for a minute, that would be fine.

my mind is so open and unraveling with so many ideas lately.
last night, i layed in bed and wrote for it seems like maybe 3 hrs or so. i wrote these beautiful song lyrics, they mean alot to me.

have you ever sat down to write because an idea sparked you then it ends up being like so muchh. at first you think to yourself, oh that thought i need to write it down.. thinking its a short little phrase or poem.. then once you start writing you cant stop. just word after word, phrase after phrase comes pouring out of your pen thats in your hand like water pours out of a faucet, and until you turn the faucet off, it keeps coming.. so my mind is just running constantly…
mmhmmm, i absolutely love it<33

i have been so emotional in the past two weeks. everything has been really going straight to my heart, every word or gesture an individual has made to/towards me has really affected me mentally and emotionally. i have clue as to why but it is making me mind and creativity come alive.

I woke up this morning and while I was getting ready for work, for some reason I just had all the mistakes I had on my mind and a certain guy that I miss but things shouldn’t have been the way they were. Well I just thought of this and would like some feedback. Its not like what I usually write.. to me it seems kinda elementary but I dont know. When I actually look at it in print, read it, and really think about it…It makes sense to me and means something genuine. It’s exactly how I feel.

What do you think? Does it mean something to you? Can you relate?

“You bleed regret while I cry mistake,
the difference is, I’ve learned.”

Today was one amazing day for me. I was laying in bed when i first woke up this morning just thinking about everything and just all these beautiful lyrics came to me. I jumped up and got my writing book and just scribbled and drew and doodled and wrote all the things that were racing through my mind. At first it all seemed like chaos but in the end, everything just seemed to piece together like a puzzle. It released so much off my mind and shoulders. =)

Looking back at my big, hardback cover spiral notebook
I have had for the past 5 years, I realized that I
haven’t wrote in it for almost 6 months now. I used to
write everyday. Its not a journal. Actually it is
nothing like a journal. I just write down my thoughts
and anything thats on my mind in it. My poetry, song
lyrics, etc. I miss that. Some of the things I’ve written
are quite amazing. If I started writing often again,
I think I’d be happier and could really get some things
off of my mind. Def. I need to start my writing back up.
When I wrote everything down, It was like my escape from
reality && it was relaxing and the highlight of my day.
I need that highlight back. That escape is a wonderful thing.