find a girlfriend

We all have those moments where we question our own sexuality, it happens. You can either let it roll off your shoulders or you can test the waters to see if you like it.

Well, I can officially say I do not like being with a man at all. I have tried on three separate occasions to see if I would even remotely enough sex with a man and it just doesn’t happen for me.

No matter where we are or what we try, no matter what flavor they are (Black, White, Hispanic) I feel nothing. Maybe it’s physical maybe it’s all in my head, I don’t know. But I am numb throughout the whole time.

Ans it’s always the same outcome, the next day I feel disgusting, sore and violated (even though it is always safe and consensual.) It is now totally clear to me now that I just can’t be with a man.

Tomorrow I’m going on a date with a woman and I’m just so thankful for that. Maybe now I can get my mind back to normal because being with a man just screws me up.

After tomorrow I hope I can get out of the shower, look at myself in the mirror and not feel so dirty. I’m not saying men are bad at all. A lot of men out there have good…even great qualities about them but, in the end I’d rather fall asleep next to a beautiful woman than some handsome man any day of the week.

To all you straight women out there…kudos to you cause I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the thought of being with a man what so ever.

I don’t know what it is but lately I have been getting a lot of male attention and it’s getting on my last nerve.

Not really jumping into the pool but taking my time and enjoying the time to myself. It’s kind of nice.

I don’t know if I’d say sparks didn’t fly. Maybe more like sparks can’t fly at the moment due to wild fire dangers. I guess I’m going to keep things cool for now and let whatever happens happen.

The girl I’ve been talking to, gave me her number today. I felt great all day and I’ve been talking to her most of the night. She even said she likes me. I feel great!

I’ve been talking to an amazing girl. We get along so well and she’s so funny and smart, I’m dying to ask her out but I’m going to have to wait. She just got out of a bad relationship, hopefully my patiences will pay off and the first date will be a great start.

Stop being so picky about women…

It’s a horrible habit of mine. I meet a nice girl and we have all sorts of things in common but I always find something wrong. She’s too short, I don’t like her laugh, I hate the way she sings, she’s too young for my taste. I can find anything I don’t like in a woman and after that I don’t want to be with her.

Which is just stupid because that’s how I find the worst women for me. I weed out all the good ones and take the bad ones. Well that stops now. Starting with the picky attitude.