get straight A's

I’ve got a bad case of sEnIoRiTissss

I feel so unmotivated this year. It’s senior year. Figures. I have been trying very hard – I’m taking AP Biology and APUSH and it really stinks. Three of my teachers simply will NOT update grades regularly and my grades look like shit. Two nights ago, I stayed up all night, got no sleep (maybe I shouldn’t have done this) and studied for an APUSH test. I understood everything. Took the test the next day and got 68%. I am extremely disappointed in myself. AP classes suck. I get my SAT score results next month which scares me. I’ve been slacking off a ton lately and procrastinating like there’s no tomorrow. I don’t have any “drive” to get anything done. I’m scared that I will not get into the university I want to go to. School really stresses me out. Yet, I’m not doing much about it because I still have homework that is yet to be completed and here I am complaining about something I have the ability to accomplish but just. won’t. do. it.

I feel like I can’t get anything done without that feeling of terror. You know when you have less than 30 minutes until your next class and your homework is still incomplete? That’s what I’m talking about.

2nd semester
3.95 GPA

I got tired of trying fourth quarter. I got tired of trying in Math and realized I forgot everything I learned when final exam rolled around and didn’t bother to study. I got a 78 on that baby. Oooh ooh, oooh well.
Yes, I could’ve gotten away with a gorgeous 4.0 but I was so tired and exhausted I couldn’t take it anymore. Next year (senior year!) will only get harder so I’ve got to …. try. to…. not get so tired.

AP Psych: A- (so pissed; I lost a 5 pt assgnmnt which killed my A to an A-)
Spanish: A
Chemistry: A
Draw/Paint: A
Algebra 4: A
English: A

I have no chance at a cumulative 4.0 GPA
but I will strive for a 4.0 this 2nd semester!

Why do I get the lowest grades in the easiest classes?

Last semester: Weight training, B
Currently: Draw/Paint II, A-

I’m really happy that I’ve been making A-’s and A’s on my AP Psych tests.
I’ve learned that even if it’s something you don’t want to do at the moment, you know you have to get to it later so get it done, get it over with, and don’t think about it, just do it. Don’t let your desires get the best of you.