love myself

i hate myself a lot of the time. i used to be pretty, i think so, but not anymore, i got darker and messed up my hair and i got dumber and more self-concious with smoking and heartbreaks. i never have anything to say, i can never think of anything, when i do… its almost always really dumb. im not even good at anything. ive become disgusting, i look at how i feel awkwards around the people i know… but not even when meeting people the first time. he can’t love me while i look like this, he can’t love my while i hate myself. its obvious why he’s not here.