live instead of exist

As this in my mind is also the same as the goal to make the most of every opportunity I’ve decided to try and do just that. Because I feel when I don’t, I’m just passing life by, and I’m not enjoying it – I’m just existing in it. I’m saying ‘yes’ now more to things, trying to do more things in a day and go more places. I’ve re-stared on practising things I once began but gave up on, and I’m doing different things I’ve not done before. It’s making me feel better in every way imaginable. I really must keep it up and not get back to the older, depressing ways.

I’m feeling so positive about this today. I’m beginning to realise that the small things do count. I used to let myself get down about the fact I wasn’t going anywhere exotic, or taking part in some truly life changing activity, etc. Every little small thing and new experience adds up.

I’ve decided to combine this goal with two of my others: to go out more, and to make the most of everyday. It’s the same thing I’m working towards, really.

This is perhaps my most important goal at the moment. When I stop to think about it, I’m so lazy. I don’t have a job, and although I am looking, I don’t think I’m looking hard enough. I let myself get worried about the silliest things and end up passing up some wonderful experiences and opportunities. I spend almost every hour of every day at the computer. There are so many things I want to do, see, learn…..but don’t even bother making any attempts to progress.
I really must change all this soon, because I do not want to go through life never doing anything, and regretting everything. That’s what I fear so much. I know I’m the only one who can change that!