be pretty (both on the inside and outside)

well, the main source of my bad skin was this fucked up ovary of mine!! yay, so now it’s out.
but that means that as my body is readjusting to the hormonal imbalance, i’m going to look randomly shitty for a bit.
seriously, i’ll have flawless skin one day, then i’ll wake up with eight zits. and the next day, they’re gone!!
but so far, i’ve had more good skin days than not.

and i’m feeling good about myself, except my stomach is kinda disfigured and swollen (for now) from the surgery. that’s not too hot.

i’ve been told i have a pretty bone structure,
or that i have pretty eyes, but whatever.

i want to FEEL pretty.
&& it’s pretty freaking hard to feel pretty when you’re short,
have fat thighs (or “muscular” thighs), have gross acne, and a fake hair color.
oh, and you have to wear KHAKI and WHITE five days a week.

lemme tell you, khaki and white are not your friends when you’re short and trying to look skinny.

i suppose i’ll start with getting back to my natural hair color.
i’m supposed to see my hair dresser next weekend, so i’ll get him to get me back to normal. :]

then, i’ll work on my acne, since i can do that while on bed rest.

as soon as i feel up to it, i’ll search my area for a gym that allows 15 yr olds to work out, and i’ll get back into dance, and i’ll start running on the weekends.

there’s really nothing i can do about the khaki… :[