stop talking so much

I need to wear something to remind me of this goal because if I don’t I doubt I’ll ever change…

The main reason is that sometimes without even realizing it (in the middle of a conversation) I insult someone. This bothers me for 3 reasons:
1) I don’t want to be mean or hurt anyone’s feelings.
2) It makes me sound so stupid because it appears I am closed-minded, ignorant or not tolerant of something.
3) I may not even mean what I say but my brain malfunctions or something and I end of blurting crap out. (This becomes a problem in follow up conversations especially)

Another reason is because I end up having the same conversation with the same or different people all the time and I realize I come off as boring or obsessive. (I am a little obsessive – well a lot of obsessive, I don’t need to be airing out my dirty laundry to the whole world) Plus my same conversations really bug people (ie my husband). I also seem very unintelligent by babbling on and on about the same old stuff, and never having any new interesting stuff to say.

The second to last reason is because its a form of procrastination. I seriously waste so much time because I’d rather chat for an hour than do homework for an hour. What a stupid thing to do because I would have a way better time after I get crap done.

Lastly, I have no mystery to me. I don’t even like talking to people. I get insecure about my lack of intelligent things to say. I even think to myself, while I’m chatting someone up, they don’t even want to carry on this conversation with me. Why am I bothering them?

I should just keep to myself, to avoid offending anyone, to avoid boring anyone, to avoid appearing unintelligent, to avoid procrastinating, to actually have some mystery about me.