Yes, I am needy.
Man, I’ve really struggled to admit that for SOO long.
I did like to think of myself as independent, strong and able to survive emotionally alone! The good thing is, is that now I realize that I have the potential, just not doing anything with it. That is how I came across this place looking for some answers!
I have a fantastic boyfriend, THE PERFECT GUY (prob is “the one”) who I am madly in love with. I mean I made fun of and laughed at couples who act like we do before and now its actually happening to me! He’s fantastic!!!
.... and he doesn’t really know that I have much of a needy side, which is good for us but I’m sure you’re wondering where the needy side goes to get its fix….
Well, I am ashamed to say, I flirt/talk dirty to other guys :(
It has to be neediness or something wrong with my self-confidence (no signs of that though besides this) but I do not know how to stop myself and yet I love my man!! I am probably going to get married to him eventually! :)
MY RULE:
I cannot marry him if I don’t stop contacting all these people.
You may wonder if I make plans or hang out with these guys? Neither, they know I have a man I love and they continue to be cool and hang around ..like their… supporting the neediness…its weird and it’s not random guys, I know or have hung out with them before.
THIS SITUATION IS WACK. I need more help than re-adjusting my schedule and I don’t really have the money to go talk to a shrink.
If anyone can relate and give me some feedback I would greatly appreciate it.
— In need of a monogamous mind —
