lose weight

Last month I almost had a heart attack when I stepped on the scales. It’s been a rough year, and since the start of 2008 I gained a TON of weight!

When I started my diet last month I weighed 179. Today I weigh 160. All I have done is cut calories by drinking diet sodas instead of regular, make conscious choices about what is healthy for me at the grocery store instead of impulse-buying or buying the cheapest thing, and stop drinking so many alcoholic beverages, which are loaded with calories.

My goal weight is still 125. And now I have incentive not to gain the weight back because my insurance is going to start charging fat people more money (I work for the State of Alabama…it was on the news a couple weeks ago). I already pay $25 a month for insurance because I smoke (yes, I know, free BC/BS has spoiled me into thinking that’s a lot to have to pay, but I was uninsured for awhile, and honestly I would rather pay hundreds of dollars than go without again). An extra $25 is just not going to happen.

The upside to the side effects of ADHD medication…I’m losing weight like crazy! AND I’m getting things done, and focused, and all of that.

SW: 174
CW: 149
GW: 125

According to the plasma center, I have lost FOUR POUNDS in two weeks…without doing anything drastic! I really don’t even know what I’ve done that’s causing me to lose weight…the only thing I have done AT ALL is cut down on eating bread. For real. I still eat it a little bit, too, but I’ve tried to include more protein and vegetables in my diet.

I thought maybe the plasma center’s scales were being too nice to me until I went to put on a pair of pants that was a little tight a month ago. It was kind of embarrassing, because I wore them to Mass yesterday, and every time we stood I had to hold them up. I was so happy I kept them on the rest of the day, which led to awkward situations like me running across a parking lot to the store with them held up like that, me suddenly realizing my underwear was showing, much like a middle school “gangsta” with low-riding pants, etc.

Then I looked at my stomach. My stretch marks from my “fat” stage are just about GONE. All this happened overnight. I don’t know why, but I’m happy.

I am now ONE POUND away from where I was when I met my boyfriend a little over a year ago. No wonder he keeps telling me I look good.

SW: 174
CW: 156
GW: 125

UPDATE 7/17/07: The doctor’s office scales not only confirmed that I have been losing weight, but there I was two pounds LESS than at the plasma center. I’ll take my doctor’s office over the plasma center in terms of accuracy…154!

It all started when he said he was hungry and asked if I could buy him something. I said I had some frozen burritos in the freezer. He went off on me saying that as much as I call myself fat he wouldn’t eat anything that came out of my freezer. He told me to eat more meat and less processed food and carbs, that I’m killing myself. I asked him about how he used to always say I was beautiful and healthy and that I had just ENOUGH fat. He basically said that when he met he I WAS at a healthy weight, but what I put on while he was in jail was just extra fat. Yeah. Now I’ve made him sound like a cad, even though I bitch about being fat to him all the time, but oh, well…I AM going to fix this!

I figure I’ll give this one a try for awhile…maybe it’ll work and I’ll be able to lose some weight! I’m going to get some of the shakes, some bars, and some diet soda/tea sweetened with Splenda later today. I’m also getting a couple of things to cook real meals with (which are less than healthy because I was never good at health food, but I’ll be sharing them with lots of people).

I’ll also look into diet pills and see if I see any that look like they’d work without being dangerous…

SW 1/23/07: 174
CW: 160
GW: 125

The scale at the doctor’s office read 166 yesterday, and this was WITH shoes on and holding my purse, since I was being lazy that day.

Height: 5’
Measurements: 34FF-30-38 (approximation on the last two, especially since my butt has doubled in size in the past couple months, even with me losing weight…I wear a size 30 jeans, or a size 10-12, depending on sizing)
Start weight 1/23/07: 174
Current weight 5/10/07: 166
Goal weight for the end of summer: 140
Goal weight for the end of this goal: 125

I don’t know why, but my face LOOKS a lot thinner than it ever has, even when I weighed like forty pounds less…

Maybe this is a natural part of the aging process. I know I’ve lost a little bit of weight and that a lot of the fat in my stomach went into my hips to create a nice little butt for me, but wow, my proportions are COMPLETELY different than they were, say, a year ago.

The other day at the plasma center the scale read 168. And that was WITH all my clothes and shoes on and everything, so probably I’m about a pound less. My old jeans are actually starting to fit again, I can feel the extra skin on my stomach (which is kind of nasty, but at least I’m losing weight), and I fit into a skinny girl’s pants for the first time in like a year (a lot of people look thinner than me but actually aren’t, like this friend of mine last year who looks a lot better than I do but had a pair of American Eagle jeans in my size she just gave me…this girl has lost some weight because she’s been sick, but when she handed me that pair of pants, I thought there was no way in hell I’d actually get in them).

I’m still at the same weight I was a month ago. I really, really need to start going to work out at the rec center. That would also get my mind off a lot of the crap in my life right now, too. AND I need to drink more water, eat more salad, etc.

I lost four pounds according to the scale at the plasma center, and they wouldn’t even let me take my shoes off to step on the damn thing. That’s a bit of a relief.

Yesterday I got some good exercise, too. I walked over 3 miles with a friend to go see some other friends (including my estranged fiance), and then after we’d gotten done chilling we walked home. It was a nice night, not as cold as it’s been lately. I’d love to walk that far again.