Be Myself

So I pretty much tried the whole “be myself” thing a few days ago. I went over to my friend Brina’s house (she is my best friend and i’ve known her pretty much my whole life. she is one of those ppl I am myself with whenever i’m around her) and her three room mates were there whom I had never met before. Ched, Erin, and Greg.

So I pretty much said screw it and just said what I thought instead of second guessing myself… all went well. No one said anything dumb to me or anything, and I even got a few laughs. I know that because Brina was there it has something to do with my outgoingness… but it’s still progress.

And my crush just recently asked me out. So yay I have a new bf to show myself too. Since my last relationship (yes I am comparing them) I find it much easier to open up to my new bf than I did with my past one. I think i’m really getting the hang of this.

Once I feel like I have acheived this with everyone, I shall mark this as done. But it will still take more time.

But when your self confidence is at a low… my dear god if you are yourself you’re gonna think that everyone is going to critisize what you do. Or you are going to second guess yourself with everything!
I always second guess myself when I meet new people or start dating someone new. I just need to learn how to be more open about who I am and just do things that I want to do and say what I mean.
I can when i’m around friends that i’ve been friends with my whole life. Because they know me and know how I am. I just want to be my comftorble self with everyone I know and meet. I just have to figure out how.

Just have to let myself go.. little by little.