become healthy

I’ve been taking my daily vitamins and when I don’t have time to eat (which is usually between the hours of six a.m. and one a.m.) I’ve been drinking ensure for extra vitamins and calories. I also walk four miles every day, rain or shine, and that’s got to count for something. My most serious problems all stem from stress and working hard on my feet all day. I know from experience that yoga helps my edema and more importantly my bad circulation from anemia so it’s my goal to slip in at least twenty minutes five days a week, and maybe on my days off I can pull off full hour sessions. I will try to put this theory into practice this week no matter how tired I feel.

It probably doesn’t help that I work in an industry where I’m objectified and treated like a fucking sled dog all day long. Someday….someday I’m going to fly over the counter with a broken bottle in my hand, and that will be the end of it all for me. They’ll start paying bartenders mental hazard wages and I’ll go down in history as a marder. At least that’s how I see it right this moment in my insomnia driven delirium.
Fuck this job. Seriously.

I work fifty six hours a week, I never sleep, my hair is falling out and I want to slaughter everyone I come into contact with. How do you fix something like that?
I think my decision to quit drinking may have inadvertantly caused me to age a decade and take everything entirely too seriously.

I’m going back to basics to start off with, little things like taking vitamins (I’m so malnourished I should probably start with prenatals…) quit eating meat again, start paying attention to my skin, relax, and start doing yoga again.
I do walk four miles a day which helps, but I really need a whole lifestyle makeover to truly embody this goal. Wish me luck :) I’m also open to tips n’ ideas. Thanks lovelies :)