Stop being depressed

i have been on medication for nearly 4 months now, and at first i thought i was feelin better but i really dont!! my doctor isnt that understanding i feel she thnks im wasting her time!so i dont wanna have to go back and talk to her. i have bout 1 months worth of pills left so will haave to see how i feel after that.

went to the GP today and spilt my guts about how i have been feelin the last couple of years and then the ast few months, i broke down it was scary and a shook the whole time. She was so lovely thou and was really sympathetic which was great as i had visions of the doctor being stand offish and thinking is was just being silly, but she really listened to me and i have been put on an anti depressent sooooo, hopfully this is the start of recovery i already feel a bit better from talking to the dr, im planning on visiting my grandparents then my auntie over the next month, change of scenery and all

definatly on a downer at the moment with no inkerling of light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel has been bricked up and i am stuck alone in the darkness.

yesterday was a bad day, on a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being happy (as if) and 10 being bottomless pit no way out depressed, i’d say i was a steady 8! i now find my self feeling guilty for feeling this way as there are people out there far worse off then me. ok so i am fat, ugly, in a horrible job that pays peanuts and i dont have many friends but least i am not homeless etc, if only i could see a way out of it. i really cant stand it anymore this cant be all there is for me it just cant.

after another after another. I find myself thinking to myself whats is the point in my life a lot lately, i hate my job i am fat and ugly and i have hardly no social life as i have isolated myself from my few friends for so long that they dont really bother with me n e more. So in conclusion … there is nothing.

i really dont know where to start, i feel so down all the time, ive never been a happy person in childhood and especially as a teenager but i hoped id grow out of it, but for the passed year or so i have been having weeks on end of feeling like i want to die, i used to cut myself but i havent done since i was 17 (a few hiccups) i hate my life, i dont even like going out and uselly only do for work. and im fat and ugly which really dosent help, i feel stupid and alone but i really wish i didnt