take a chance for once in my life

me and one of my close friends just got into an argument. She said that i never take chances and im indecisive and care about what others think of me…i got so upset at her for saying these things. But the reason why i got so upset was because everything she said was basically true. I am indesicive and i do care about what others think of me too much and i do need to be bold. She said that i need to stand up for what i want. that made me so mad because i know i have issues with being myself and everything but ive always considered myself as a strong person at the core. whether what she said was true or not, i am not going to be that kind of person.

I keep doing this to myself. I want so desperatly to get close to someone, whether it be a friend or boyfriend, but when the chance comes, i back down b/c i get scared or being vulnerable and getting hurt some way….i cant do it anymore i cant do it.. how do i get over this?