lose weight until I reach my goal weight and look as sexy as I know I am

... at once! But he’s doing a good job of keeping me motivated and holding me accountable.

This is going soooo slowly, but I need to make it a reality. I realized for a lot of my life, my attitude has been “I should lose weight, I wish it was easy.” Now, it’s more along the lines of “ok, let’s do this thing.”

The boy says I’m already sexy. And I do feel it. I’m looking at this like a new coat of paint. Really fit paint that could kick someone’s ass.

Alright, I’ve done it. I’ve signed up for a personal trainer. I’m imaging a man named Sven with rippling muscles who will stand on my feet while I do 1000 crunches… In reality, it will probably be a very nice man who pushes me a little bit more than I’m able to push myself thus far, which is what I need.

Sexy Amanda, here I come. :)

... and I am not going to make my goal by graduation. But! – I have lost 15 pounds and kept it off, and am living a much more conscious & healthy lifestyle. That seems so much more important somehow.

..,but I’ve had friends tell me it’s a good way to keep motivated.

“I need to lose weight,” I told Mike.
“You look very healthy.”
“I’m 208 pounds!”
“There’s no way.”

While that was sweet of him, I’ve regained much of my post-breakup depression weight loss. I don’t feel terribly large or ugly most days, but I know I need to be healthier.

I’ve cut out sweets except on the weekends, no soda, no more fast food, less carbs. It’s difficult to diet when you’re out of the house 15 hours a day during the week and can’t cook as much as you’d like!

However, after a week of cutting back, I am now at 205! I’m only weighing myself once a week so I don’t become obsessive. My goal is 160 by graduation. That will be the skinniest I’ve ever been.