Have a torrid erotic clandestine purely physical affair

Both of two boys I talked about in my earlier post revealed themselves just as real crap.
As person, I mean.
So nothing done with the second and goodbye with the first one.
I am so closed…and everyone seems to me so vulgar and poor.
It is really really difficult for me to get interested and involved in someone. :-(

...with the first one.
I find him a wonderful guy. Really wish to see him again soon. Very soon.

Well, there are these two guys.
First one has a crush on me since last october. I don’t know if I really like him, but the way he’s going mad about me is starting something in me…
Second one is very very very VERY sexy and is driving me crazy…can’t think about him without getting wet (blush!).
He promise me multiorgasmic nights and I don’t have any doubt he is the lover I’ve always dreamt of…
But…
I still have difficulties to let go.
Many fantasies about both of them, but no fact yet.
When it comes to decide where and when, I escape.
:(