let him go

We are friends.I love him as a friend, and I dont know what HE feels…
I want him to love me as his friend.
its soo hard..
rrr…

okay…
now were friends..
I know this will be hard..
But I just cant let him go…

I dont know where that impulses come from…
But they control me.
I just texted him,
I told him I cant let go.
GOD!!!
i KNOW I have to!!!
...He will be fine, Im sure.
Its me who’s going to suffer..
i feel it

rrrrrrrr

today, there were for about 10 things, I was going to txt him about..because he is the only one who could truly appreciate them…
I so dont want him to forget me,,
im being such a bad person.
I have to let him go.
I need to get his stuff to his friend asap,
if we cant be together,
we have to forget each other.

crying in the shower is the best way to cry..Noone sees it, noone hears it, noone annoys u with stupid questions.
People ask not to cry, but it hurts!
I cant make myself delete his msgs and what should I do with his stuff???
It reminds me of him…
everything around me looks like him…