Pay more attention to my appearance

Well well well… Spring is here. Can’t hide under that puffy jacket anymore. (also means no pajamas underneathe!) I tend to try to hide the look of my chest by slouching, hoping people won’t notice. I’m making the effort to have good posture, hold my head high as if I’m walking with a book on my head. What I noticed is that people treat you with more respect if you have good posture. It doesn’t matter if you’re flat chested or average looking.

I wish I can look and act a bit more feminine. My hair is very long and I wear lipstick religiously, but why do I feel like a Shrek next to some chicks? Maybe I should trade a pair of sexy ankle boots with my dingy sneakers. Some chicks know how to pull it together, the clothes, gestures, makeup… as if they’re born with it. The way I speak sometimes I get radared by lesbians, though it’s flattering. Hmm.. maybe I’m imagining it all in my head like everyone says.