take back control of my life

I did it. I have my own destiny firmly in my grasp. No more like Prometheus bound to the rock I am free floating and able to make my own decisions. I can now work on becoming powerful again, confident, strong and sure of my ways.

“Better to be a free bird than a captive king.”
- Danish saying

You know, I really love the quotes here on 43things. I just have to say. It’s one of the things that immediately made me join when I found the page. They’re never too sappy, always hit home, and come from all sorts of interesting sources.

This one couldn’t have been more accurate for the goal! I have felt for a long time like a caged bird, or more accurately, like a caged princess. I feel I have bribed into my lifestyle with multimedia. I am complacent. How do I break out of the cycle when it is so cleverly created by today’s system? I have had enough. I am taking a sledgehammer to it!

I will no longer go to work in the morning, work a boring job that tires me out so that I go home and sleep or sit in front of the xbox or dvr all evening. I won’t deceive myself anymore that just because I don’t watch the lowest common denominator in programming or submit myself to commercials that I am saving time or living worthwhile…Overloaded by junk, by piles of dvd’s, games I have to finish, lack of energy, lack of motivation – even shyness…

The funny thing is, I don’t know exactly what has broken me out of my shell…the spring weather always gives me a boost, but it’s more than that. I have recently tapped into some old vein of confidence I had during my teenage years that I thought was gone for good. I’m not sure how I did this. But it feels good.

This is a bulletin from Illuminati on Myspace:

NEVER WORK

Don’t allow yourself to be bought. Do what you want to do most, not just what you are paid to do. If you sell your time away for money, doing something that is not in itself rewarding for you, you are selling your life away. What could you possibly buy with that that would be worth the life you lost?
There is a difference between life and mere survival. The capitalist economy would sell you mere survival at the cost of your life: it does this by making you spend your life working towards other peoples goals rather than your own, in order to earn the money to buy things that their advertisements and media have brainwashed you into believing you need.
We each have only a short time on this planet to live and find happiness. Is the life your living the one which will bring you happiness? Are you doing what you want to because you love it, or for some other reason? What could possibly justify not doing what you really want to do with your life? To the best of your ability, never work for companies or any other outside forces; do what you do in your life for YOURSELF!

NEVER REST

Decide what it is you want in life and go for it! Don’t just sit around waiting for it to come to you; it probably won’t. If you want anything, anything at all, you are going to have to pursue it. Its up to you to figure out how….. and DO IT!
Today we are conditioned to sit still when we are not obeying orders. When we are not at work, we are supposed to sit quietly in front of the television absorbing whatever is fed to us, or to act our predetermined (and absolutely harmless) roles as sports or music fans. But If we are to find happiness in this world, we must learn how to act for ourselves again. We must fight to find new ways of survival and of life, especially if we are to break free of the burdens of “work”. We cannot just sit around in circles of so -called entertainment and “leisure time”; we must invent our own activities, we must motivate ourselves and never rest in our struggle to take our lives back. Its not going to be easy, but its worth it if anything is!

RAISE THE STAKES

If a little bit of freedom is good, then a lot of freedom is great. If a little bit of pleasure is nice, then a lot of pleasure is glorious. We are not content to settle for whatever scraps of self-determination and joy come our way under the system that prescribes our lives today. We want everything. We want complete control over every aspect of our lives; we want to taste the sweetest happiness and most exhilarating liberty this existence has to offer; we want to lead lives that are as heroic as any we have read about in books. We want high stakes: we don’t want to just let our lives pass us by, mediocre and tiresome, as so many others have before us.
FOR THIS WE ARE WILLING TO RISK ANYTHING; FOR THIS, WE ARE WILLING TO FIGHT!
-CrimethInc.