stop being shy

I don’t know why I’m so afraid of rejection… I always say you’re only going to get a YES or NO so go for it!!...

But that doesn’t work yet…

:-(...

help?

I always say I’m going to go on MTV’s MADE show one day and do something I feel is humiliating (shy people think everything is humiliating by the way…lol!) like be in a fashion show… that would be so hard…

Every night before I go to sleep, I always find myself in sort of a reflective mood. I sit and think about the day’s events and various things going on in my life. Everyday, taking my time to sit and think like that gives me some sort of relief. Most of my days are good days, but it’s still relieving to sit and just think things over.
On one particular night, this was New Year’s Eve night, I took a lot more time (not purposely though, it just sort of happened) to think about the past year. I always can look back at the past year and say I’ve learned a lot and have matured in one way or another. Even as a young girl, I was always a shy person. Not anti-social, just very quiet. I’m very conscious about the things I say and do in front of people I’m not familiar with. I always wished I wasn’t that way either and I notice that I’m starting (slowly but surely) to grow out of that. I notice I grow out of a lot of things as the years go by.
There are still lots of times where I want to go and do the ostrich routine and just stick my head in the ground somewhere. But I can definitely say that I’ve made progress—Even though I know that shy timid part will always be somewhere inside of me, I still have hope of growing completely out of those little things one day.

I’m still not completely over being shy. I’ve grown somewhat out of it… but I’m still that same old quiet/shy/conscious/timid girl…