Let someone in

a really bad patch with my girlfriend, and I’ve been having so much trouble dealing with it. I don’t really like to open myself up to people even close friends, but I’ve had amazing support from my friends. I just decided what am I doing, I have friends here, if they are my friends they will understand. I really opened up to a couple of friends, I was so scared they would run away (don’t ask me why I thought that) but they were so understanding, it made me so happy to be able to feel like I wasn’t alone, that I had friends I could talk to, its something I should have done a long time ago.

This is the goal that I feel I want to complete the most. I have a lot of friends, but I wouldn’t say I have any friends who I think completly understand me. Sure i’ve got friends who are very good friends and are very loyal, i’m not taking anything away from them. I have a lot of things I would love to tell someone, little secrets about me that i’ve never told anyone, partly because I’m afraid of scaring them off if i do tell them. They aren’t all bad things, some of them are or i see them as bad. I just wish i had someone i felt so comfortable with that i could just show the real me to them and not have them run off but instead look into my eyes and tell me that even with all my flaws they love me.