get a job I enjoy

okay.. so i’m working at store in the mall now, its really easy, and now i can click off this goal because i enjoy it.. its not satisfying, or a long term career.. but enjoyable right now

i quit my job. now i’m a jobless bum.
i knit all day, write poems and stress out about life.
next i’m planning on school, and another mindless job. bah

i typed up my resignation letter. its all ready to go.

but i’m not sure if i should. i’m in total limbo. do i quit before i find another job? and take some well deserved personal life time? or do i keep running in my human sized hamster ball? and work and work and save and save and work some more and just get more stressed out and disappoint myself more?

i only want to give a week notice! i can’t wait two weeks!

there is part of me that wants to be scandolous and rip a hole in the place as i leave and the other part of me wants to keep patching the hole forever.

i haven’t heard back from that dietary aid position. i suck.

time is ticking . i applied for university and i haven’t heard anything back.. no acceptance and no rejection. i’m nervous. i need a change. i’ve already told my current job that i’m leaving at the end of august.
i need a change either way.
maybe i’ll move to london live with my family there, get a job and apply for winter semester.
if i leave here, i’m leaving my boyfriend, thats about it. i don’t think he’s ready to move away from his family yet. and i respect that. but this city that i live in drains me of my confidence. there is minimal opportunities here for me. to further my education and career i’ll have to relocate to another city.
i’m so stressed out, i can’t feel my face.

i just sent my resume out to be a dietary aid!....i am so excited! and i’m so scared! ahhh! what have i done? if i get a new job how am i going to get there? with my no license, my parents drive me to my conviently located job right now. god i’m failure….. no.. no.. i’m awesome. i’ll figure something out. my parents are pretty supportive. and if i have to i’ll start sleeping in the supply room. i’m sure this new job will have a supply room. muahaha!

ah ha! there is hope in the world! atleast for me right now. i was getting depressed about life and how i feel stuck, and BAM! i find an advertised job as a dietary aid! exactly what i was looking for, sweet sweet joy… now i just have to dodge all my insecurities.

should i sign up with and agency that finds you a job?
is this a good idea? or will this label me as unable to find a job on my own?

sometimes life goes really smooth….and i don’t think about getting a new job. i think about writing poems and drinking chocolate soymilk and if its worth it to get a tattoo.

its only the times when i feel over worked, i start getting excited about finding a job.

this has to stop. i need to end this unhealthy cycle of stress, each time it gets worse, why am i not learning yet?

okay! i have a brand spanking new resume and a pretty cover letter to boot. its fabulous! thanks to my brothers girlfriend, she’s a whiz.
next is actually sending them out into the world…i hope they won’t get lost and lonely.

i need to get rid of my current job. working in a hardware store. its really not very satisfying and quite annoyingly stressful.
i could. just outright quit.. which would give me the motivation to get a new job. or i could just try and find a job while i still have a job. ( my procastination always gets the better of me)