find at least one thing each day that makes me happy and record it everyday for a year

• had a major sleep in today, clearly I needed to! 10:00 am.. holy moly, but so nice to wake up when I was ‘ready’ not having to be anywhere, at a set time is sometimes just so nice. I am so scheduled most days, Sunday is a slower day for day for me as I find it necessary to have more R&R on at least one day a week!
• planning my week.. oh so much to do!
• watching a ridiculously sappy Women’s movie, the title I don’t even recall, but it was escapism..
• a glimmer of an idea that could be ‘big’ news down the road… oh hoping for that !

I’m making more plans for getting out and about!!!

A friend called, and Ive invited her to join me on a hike I’m doing this Fri. She was thrilled with the invite, and we’ve also made plans to do a weekly walk every Friday night.

That and bike riding plans too! OMG I am ecstatic! This is exactly what I need: plans, but to get outdoors especially, and to be active again!

I’m so looking forward to this…

I consider this to be a gigantic step, for the last while my social calendar has been pretty much non-existent.

This week I’ve made arrangements to go out 3 times in a week. That is unheard of for me – but it will be so great to get together with some gals I haven’t seen in oh man sooo long and also go on a hike/walk and meet some new people.

I’ve also made plans for a mini-getaway for a weekend to one of my fav places in the province!

Planning is making me consider how important it is to have things to look forward to.

Probably the most excited I’ve been in many weeks!

can be painful, profound and powerful!

• I’ve discovered far too many things lately that I’d rather not admit to.. but with that comes a desire and will to change a couple of key things that I’ve never had the courage to face…....
• today I called someone I haven’t spoken to in too long, with a cheery message, and even though I don’t know if this call will ever be returned, for it feels like we’ve been on different tangents for some time, I know that sometimes people are only in your lives for a set time, for one is meant to have ‘new’ people enter their world.. and that is a painful lesson, but a truthful one.
• glorious sunshiney day!
• a new project that makes me giddy with happiness :)
• found money in pockets! $10.50! Makes me wonder how much ‘found’ money I’d discover if I cleaned out my closet, looked in each nook and cranny: ie the couch cushions, and the front hall closet!.. well you get the idea!!!

- the long weekend, and the house is mineeeee.
- day of really getting real with myself on some really tough ‘stuff’, but feeling more energized and positive afterward
- writing – therapeutic, powerful and insightful
- feeling that the next chapter, next aspiration may be one that was shelved many years ago, but is showing ‘itself’ for a reason, and trusting in that..
- soft warm glow of the sunlight streaming in my window this morning
- watering my sweet basil and thyme – the wee herb garden will be planted in days to come..
- glimmers of hope emerge
- knowing my strengths will see me through this
- looking at old photos although they do bring a tear to my eye, bring memories of my family, my lovely Mom
- Grieving is normal – healthy and this time will become easier

Making plans for the week and as has been my custom in recent weeks, I change it up each week depending on what I see /feel needs to be addressed, and gives me a sense of control over my hypersensitive emotions…

Mother’s Day and my first without my Mom, and I find myself
Writing a wee letter to Mom, saying how much I miss her.

A chicken dinner that my son cooked. Thank god that he cook or I’d starve!

*discovering a book yesterday purely by accident that is a story about depression – maybe it was what I truly needed.. for I am devouring the book, and realizing so many truths that are hitting home, and showing me there is a way out of the darkness

*Hurray – a day where the looming depression I was struggling with only a few days ago, was nowhere in sight…!
*I’m back to making plans socially, and getting back to living again… it feels good to have plans to look forward to!
*I’ve got three events coming up that feels totally exciting!
*arriving home to a home cooked meal made by my son.. crockpot chicken in a spicy sauce. I could smell it before even walking into the house! So tender, and yummy!
*receiving a ‘nice email’ today from a friend who lives in the UK, and just checking on me – for he’s been worried about me. (a lot of people have been – I’m just learning !
*Invited out to lunch with a co-worker.. and even though I was swamped with work, I went anyway, and we had a nice visit, it is so good to get out of the office for a break – good company even better!
*Realizing today I soo like this position better than my old one. Thank you God for looking out for me!
*A sweet compliment on my new hair do. It is VERY short (for me!) but was a breeze to dry /style!
*getting up early, and having plenty of time to get ready! Made for a much more pleasant day, and less stressed! I even had the extra time for a coffee! Bonus!
*I took some plants to work today to make my work space feel more like my own. I just love seeing my little succulent ‘garden’ at my desk! Such a small thing, but it made my day!

With much gusto I created a list of goals I want to achieve/work on this week. Took it much further than necessary but it was satisfying to build a ‘plan’ rather than just a ya I should work on that kind of list, which somehow never becomes successful! I even made myself an elaborate excel worksheet to track progress! Accountability!

• looking forward to getting together with a friend this week, at a new hangout, and hoping it will be fun, as she does make me laugh!

• ideas popping into my head today! Love it!

• sunshiney day, and I’m going outside to get the garden into ship/shape before gardening season starts! A banner day weather wise!

• forgiving myself for a error in judgment that I made the other day, and sometimes I’m far too hard on myself!

yoyo!! – why are my emotions all over the map the last two days?

• had a fun time at a concert with a friend last night
• plans to do fun stuff with a friend I don’t see often enough. I love her positive energy, her enthusiasm. She is so nice to be around!
• Hello sunshine! Gorgeous day today
• Assessing what I must do to get ‘back on track’ with getting back my life, and making realistic plans that aren’t too demanding but still a bit of a stretch for me.
• so grateful for rarely using Facebook! I now go on maybe once a week or so, just for a quick glance, and I don’t even miss much in a week!

• An anniversary of 2 yrs of employment for the government
• A very productive day, and the first time I’ve been told at the new position, that I was doing a great job, and being able to figure out how to fix a bit of a sticky issue, in ‘record time’... felt damn good!
• looking forward to my kick-ass weekend! For the first time in weeks, actually more like months I have lots of planssss! I’m back to building a life again..
• Watching Grey’s
• Knitting, for sooooooo long I haven’t even had the time, tonight I had a good hour of it!
• worked for an hour on my sorting my ‘papers’ and building the new ‘filing’ system to become even better organized…
• lots of accomplishment today and night!! (did some laundry too!)