Overcome my eating disorder.

a few hours ago i purged till i nearly passed out.

apparently i’ll have to see a doctor if my weight drops anymore, i want to get well but i don’t at the same time.

It’s like i don’t want to be ‘normal’

i dunno if this is good or not but i seemed to have maintained my weight, with a few pounds lost, and have only been purging about twice a week.

i have found i am okay at eating when i want to, not at a set time, e.g. not at dinnertime

just had my first meal in 3 days, felt like shit and purged it.

btw that icecream from earlier went straight down the sink as soon as it had melted.

ive only purged twice in the last week, but ive been going downhill in the last few days. i havent eaten a meal in 3 days, excpt for a few cornflakes, but now my parents have decided to bring home a mcflurry =|

i know its only an icecream, but just looking at it makes me feel sick. i havent touched mcdonalds in a year, last time i had a bite of a chicken nugget and was sick (not on purpose). i hate fast food.

i dont even really know what to do with the icrecream. it might just end up in the bin, but that’ll get my parents suspicious again.

i just purged my only meal today.

hey i’m a young male and ive had some kind of eating disorder for a year now, recently getting worse, i started off purging meals at 145 lbs and in the last few months ive gone to around 120 (i havent weighed myself in 5 weeks though). i dont purge anymore, i just eat less when i have to. ive been into hospital a few times, but they couldnt explain what was wrong (i knew), they thought i had appendixitis (spelling?) and things.

I had a kind of ‘wake up call’ the other week though, some of my family members are saying ive lost weight, i look pale, i dont eat enough, i should eat breakfast, i should eat lunch, i should finish my meals…. etc, that’s why i’m here.