I know this obvious to everyone but me, but even after things were off with MM, I still continued to allow him to torment me by not getting rid of his #, allowing him access to me socially online.
Last night was the last straw. I accidentally picked up the phone to look at a text from a friend and his call came up at the same time. Had I known it was him, I wouldn’t have answered.
GV was on cam with me and he could hear and see everything. I had MM on speaker phone and he was his normal obnoxious self. Anyway, long story short, it resulted in GV and me in an intense conversation.
GV was upset at me for continuing to let MM torment & abuse me, while I tolerated his awful treatment. GV helped give me the push and help I needed, and the courage to completely get MM out of my life. GV wasn’t threatening or forcing me, but he does not like anyone treating me poorly and won’t put up with it.
He says, like my mom and family, and others . . . that often I am too nice. However, to the people I’m closest to, that’s when I unleash my craziness. How odd is that?
I deleted MM from my phone, Yahoo IM, FB, emails, pics, everything. GV suggested I block his phone #, but I’m not willing to pay $5/month to block his #. However, GV urged me to the next time he calls, if he calls, to take his # down and do it, even he was willing to pay for this for me.
GV isn’t against me being friends with a man as long as the person treats me well, as they ought. GV tells me that it’s good to be kind and nice to people, but for those people who are worms like MM, I do not have to tolerate things like that and I need to take a stand for myself.
We had a partial discussion on this, but I didn’t want to talk more on MM. It felt so freeing and I cried a bit this morning because having in MM pop into my life caused me pain and angst. It’s like when I was doing well or fine, he would pop in like a cockroach.
GV could see freedom and joy, peace wash over me at the getting rid of MM. I’ve spent time today deleting posts of MM and I’m sorry to all those people who cheered me on the many posts I deleted.
It was very freeing to delete those posts here on 43T. I just don’t want him being a part of my “history”, if possible. I’m done, done, done with him.
Hopefully this will be my final post ever on MM.
What was really awesome is that while I was deleting these posts, GV was on cam playing beautiful music on his guitar for me. GV is such a great, supportive guy and I do love him.