There are lots of jobs out there and the Unemployment Report for the U.S. is saying many jobs are being added. I get a lot of job postings and apply for many. I’m not sure why I’m not getting even call backs. The only thing I get called back for is someone trying to enroll me in something like school or sell something to me.
So, I’m thinking there must be something spiritual here that is impeding me or something else. My husband has been getting lots of bites, some phone interviews, but no job yet. And we really need for one of us to get a good paying job.
We don’t have health insurance for him yet and it’s not something we can afford right now because I’m not making much. It’s just so weird that for a long time, making money was so easy, but since probably 2009, when I moved into my dad’s and a little before, when my house went into foreclosure (I sold it before they foreclosed on me), since that time period, making money has been super, super challenging.
Seriously, when I was working as a high schooler back over 30 years ago, I was making more money then than I am now and now I have am a family of 4. It’s very frustrating.
I am super capable of doing so much and have applied for MANY jobs, many I am either over qualified or qualified. In a few instances, in engineering, I have done the same exact things and still I couldn’t even get a bite.
My resume is changed each time I apply for a job to fit the job description, just not verbatim, but I use the key words or phrases. I’ve been to resume workshops and have had professionals help me with my resume, taken their recommendations.
It’s very frustrating. I want to be able to financially provide better for my family and not have to need others to help us. I’m very grateful and thankful for the generosity of others towards us, really. But there is this point that I just want to do it, you know?
This year is overall better, because we haven’t needed anyone’s help with the kids’ school, so that is a good thing. We’ve paid for all our car repairs on our own, so that is another good thing. Those are two huge things. And we’ve gotten to take a number of day trips here and there.
But, I want to be able to have a second car, to be able to get a home of our own, to not sweat it when a bill comes due or live from paycheck to paycheck, or hoping that my ex’s employer submits the child support and then feeling relief when they do.
I know there are many Americans who live paycheck to paycheck, but it’s because they mismanage their finances and overspend. We are not overspending. We just don’t make enough to provide for all the basic stuff, and it’s not like we aren’t looking and available to work, you know?
I work my butt off with my transcribing job, but I don’t get paid much. I think per hour, some days, it’s not even equivalent to minimum wage. However, I don’t have to pay for childcare costs or commute, so I guess you can add that in also, so technically it would be more per hour.
I get paid per page, not by the job or time I spend working. I am grateful for this job, don’t get me wrong. I’ve never worked so hard in my life.
I was thinking about why I’m not getting callbacks or anything and maybe it is a spiritual thing. Maybe I think I don’t deserve to get a good, decent paying job.
My husband said I was wrong in hearing from God when I thought that I heard God tell me to quit my engineering job. That angers me. How does he know? He’s not God. To this day, I still believe that was the thing that I was supposed to do. He says why would God have me live in poverty financially. I told him God didn’t do it, rather it was the choices of my ex and I (won’t go into that story again).
But, through all this financial hell hole, my arrogant, prideful self was humbled and I have learned to better manage my money, be resourceful, know what it is to be in need, have compassion and empathy and a host of other things I never would’ve before. I had all those things before, but now I REALLY have them because of going through all these hardships.
It’s made me much wiser, significantly, at least financially. Why would God want to entrust to me great wealth if I was arrogant and prideful? My husband doesn’t see it that way. Granted, you don’t always have to go through something to understand, but in my case in this case, I have had to.
I have been doing well in trading where about 96% of my trades go in my favor, but the issue is under capitalization. What I really need is an account of over $25K so I can really trade the way I need. Right now, I can trade with the small accounts, but time is the factor. I cannot turn over the money for use again so quickly in a daytrade. Accounts under $25K are limited in daytrading ability.
I will continue to look for jobs, apply, and take sound advice. Maybe God has something else in store and I just need to be more patient. He will continue to provide.
And, for those whom have helped me out in any manner, I am really, really eternally grateful. You know who you are. I may not be that great with sending out thank yous and all, which I am working on, but I am. I continue to pray God would shower each of you with beyond what you can ever imagine in blessings.