overcome my depression.

My doctor wants me to try a new medication cause I am having bad side effects. So I hope this works.

I have been on my new pills for a while now and am still having a hard time, but i guess it doesnt help when you are pretty much getting fired from your job, well not fired but pushed out. So sad to say that I still broke down a couple of times last week but so far this week is going better…

I wish this new medication would kick in soon, I am feeling so overwhelmed today and I dont know what to do… I tried to cry thinking that it would relieve some stress but it didnt help. I cant really get away from my work, it is so backed up…

I just went to my doctor yesterday and he gave me some anitdepressants to try out for a couple of weeks then I have to go back to see him. They are called Cipralex and I am taking them in 10mg doces. I took my first one last night and wow it kicked my ass, lol, I was so tired, couldnt stop yawning and my eyes were so glossy but it sure helped me sleep. My doctor even told me that for some people it helps you sleep and others it makes it harder to sleep. I am going to keep a journal of how I feel while im on it so that I can bring it up to my doctor when I see him again. Also he suggested that i go see a clinical Psychologist to work out my relationship problems. So I think this is the beginning of something good.

Today I am going to my doctor to talk to him about this, I really want to get the ball rolling and end this…

I have been trying to fight this depression but as I know from past experiences, it doesnt work to fight it. I just broke down today at work, I feel like I’m going crazy, and my boss saw me and came into my office and had a great talk with me (usually she is mean so this was huge) and she said that fighting it does work and that I should talk to my doctor and do whatever he says to get over this. The first time I became majorly depressive I self medicated by going to the gym all the time, I lost weight but was still depressed and I have been trying to just go to the gym all the time now to get over this but it isnt helping so I might talk to my doctor today to make an appointment. I just hate feeling like this. It would really help to have friends around but since I dont have any thats a little hard. I mean my bf is there for me and everything but there is only so much he can do for me. I think today is goign to be a hard one to get through…