i think i’ve done it. An opportunity came, was taken, and gracefully (to the best of my ability) weathered, with minimal damage.
and a bit of ‘Strangers’ (by the Kinks) to commemorate:
So you’ve been where I’ve just come
From the land that brings losers on
So we will share this road we walk
And mind our mouths and beware our talk
Till peace we find tell you what I’ll do
All the things I own I will share with you
And if I feel tomorrow like I feel today
We’ll take what we want and give the rest away
Strangers on this road we are on,
we are not two, we are one.
Can – how I react to you and what I say to you; how much energy I spend thinking about the past; my ability to see when I’m getting into an unavoidably uncomfortable situation
Can’t – your unwillingness to reflect on the past; how you’re choosing to live your life now; whether we will be friends again in the future
is beautiful like the darkness between fireflies.” -Mason Jennings
the temptation was there, but I avoided it.
good for me, huzzah ;)
It bothers me that I can’t let this go by now.
I am going to practice generosity from now on…
I initially adopted this goal with one “it” in mind, but I realize now after talking with my friend that there are several “it”s, and that they extend much further back than I thought.
Hmm. Forgiveness is step one, I think…
Well, the opportunity didn’t present itself like I had hoped, although that being said I don’t think I’m entirely back at square one.
Problem is, now I’m feeling better in certain ways but still petty and unfair in others about this.
When the strong negative feelings are totally extinguished, no matter how they manifest themselves, I’ll know I’ve made it.
I think that over the next few days I will know whether or not I have achieved this goal.
It’s looking positive, though.
And, which doesn’t surprise me, I think meditation is a factor. At least, I’ve been experiencing a heightened awareness of my thoughts and a (slightly) better ability to gauge where I’m at in a given moment, which helps me to prevent or moderate embarassments.
Trying to make some positive steps this week. I’ve been given an opportunity that could help “mend fences”. Even though it’s guaranteed to be awkward, I’ve decided that it’s worth the unpleasantness.