In high school I had no worries. I think that is why I was so much happier and I had more fun. Now, 4 years later, my personality has become somewhat… rigid? For a 21 year old I know I am too uptight.
It bothers me because I used to be such a FUN person. I made everyone laugh. Now I have become impatient and.. boring?
I want to be able to do silly things, to take my time and enjoy life instead of acting like I have to be super responsible (which I am not.. I don’t even have a job).. Maybe thats why I try to act responsible in the small things, to make up for the irresponsibility I have in the bigger things.
I just want to go through each day with ease, and not freaking out over stupid small things. I think I am wasting my time and ruining my life.
