Spending so much time on line I feel I am MOSTLY searching for things that are missing in my life.
I am looking for people who feel the same as me – sharing problems (mostly), hopes, dreams and jokes. But – hours fly by and my life carries on around me with missed oppourtunities of getting uni work done (which if it was done, means I can actually GO OUT with my housemates, GO OUT to the gallery/museum, make REAL friends and build my REAL life, face the REAL world). Don’t get me wrong – this is a personal opinion. I come to the internet when I don’t want to face things that need to be done and I don’t want it to be that way. I am a lonely person. I don’t have a lot of confidence and I’m sure as hell spending endless time on line is not going to help me conquer shyness when I meet people – I’m not shy online!
I don’t want a mobile phone.
I don’t want the internet at home.
I want to reconnect with my world again. I dont want technology that seems to have made me withdraw more and more into myself and not actually speaking to people. I text when I am too shy to talk – nearly all the time…... I actually want the challanges of real conversation and emotions and problems.
You know?..... I could go on but I think I’ve made my point! :)
So what do I do? Throw my mobile away? I wish I’d never got one ever. But how will I connect with people? Phone boxes?
As for the i’net I can just leave my wireless receiver in uni for now – starting tomorrow. It’s a start I guess.
Yeah – i shop too online, research etc. but really what bugs me concerns the above.
ciao for now baby ;)
