conquer my food addiction

This one is so very important. And so very hard. I like to eat. I like the way food tastes, but more, I like the way it makes me feel – happy while I’m eating. Problem is, when I’m done eating I feel disgusted with myself. And I can’t stop. I tried going to OA, but damn. Everyone at OA is so…huggy. People scare me as it is, to have a room full of people trying to hug me for every little victory was my undoing.

I will do this, though. I will not live the rest of my life like this. I can’t.