improve my spelling

So I find that I spell words quite well, I just have a hard time spelling them correctly and quickly; and my confidence in my word spelling(and alot of other things is very very low) I have a little spell checker that I always use…, and I’ll pop in open when I’m unsure of a word, type it in, and bing, hey I spelled it wrote the first time. So the question remains, why did I think I was spelling it wrong?

So after spending some time thinking about it, I realized..its not my spelling that is bad, its my confidence in my spelling. So where along the line of my life, the confidence that wasn't enstilled/gained in me bled over to the spelling in my life.

Its painfully sad really, in the attempt/proccess of expanding my mind, I’ve hard more and more conflicts and run-ins with my self-estseem,self-respect, self-confidence,..then anything else…