lose weight

...but I have lost weight. A lot of it actually. So I’m putting to do this again, but wanted to take a moment and focus on what I have accomplished instead of what I still have left. Plus it’s been hanging out on my goal list forever taking up space and having very little progress made on it, and I want to focus (43T-wise anyway) on other stuff.

OK this has to go on hold for a while, I’m leaving for a backpacking trip tonight and it’s not really wise to diet while backpacking. The biggest concern isn’t trying to lose weight but to make sure you are taking in ENOUGH calories. So, for the next six days I will not be on a restricted calorie thing. I’ll be back to it in a week though. Good luck to you all!

Already a kilo down, only 1.4 to go. The recalculation must have helped. I also finally went to dailyplate.com and I really like the way it works. It’s basically the same as what I had been doing in my head but, er, more reliable than my fuzzy math. :D
Thanks to everyone who gave encouragement during my (extremely long) uninspired phase!

OK after weeks and weeks of frustration I went ahead and recalculated my daily caloric needs, according to my now lower weight, and it’s about 150 calories less than I thought it was. Which would explain why I’ve been have more difficulty than I was having in the past. Now that I weigh less, oh and I got older… it appears that I need fewer calories per day. My old restricted-calorie level was 1350 per day, now it’s 1200. That seems like so little, but I tried like 4 different calculators and they all said the same thing. I guess I just have to accept that I don’t get to eat as much as taller/larger/male people. Boo hoo.

In accordance with my other goal of “convert to metric” I have discovered how to switch my digital scale over to kg, so now I will be measuring my weight in kg instead of lbs. Goodbye stupid measurement system!
My goal weight is: 59.5 or 60 kg. Not far off now.
I have to admit I haven’t been very focused on this goal lately, it seems like there is always something to give me a good excuse for not exercising or eating nutritious foods. Some of my excuses are really LAME too… “can’t bike to work today, can’t find my biking shorts!” Sigh.
It seems like I’ve tried every motivational trick I can find; promising myself a reward when I get to the goal, keeping a log of my activities on here, focusing on non-weight related goals like being able to do a certain # of situps…nothing is keeping me going. It’s like I only half want to lose the weight or something. Maybe I need to take a moment and really think about what is holding me back. I have an idea but it might sound weird. I’ll give it some thought.

I had been at 137.5 for a few days, holding strong… and then, yesterday I trained for backpacking and today I’m up by 1.5 lbs. BUT I’m not panicked because…. I have heard after intense exercise sometimes you gain a little because of water, your muscles are storing water and glucosomething (??) and so on. So I’m NOT gonna panic about it, because I know I did well yesterday. I backpacked for 5 hours up a mountain through the snow, with about 20-25 lbs. of weight in my pack. That works out to something like 1500-2000 calories burned or something like that, not to mention I’m getting stronger for the big trip in 3 weeks. Even if the weight gain was real, I’m so happy about making it through that hike!

Jeez. That’s not so good. I mean I was all depressed and missing my friend yesterday so my bf took me out to dinner and I didn’t exercise, but 2 lbs in one day? Bleargh. Now I’ll never make 135 by the weekend. Boo.

I’d like to lose one pound by the end of the week. 135 is my cut-off weight for where I feel pretty good so I’d like to be there by the end of the week since some friends have invited me and my bf to go swimming on Friday and I don’t want to feel insecure in my swimsuit. I think it’s achievable. Especially after the past week of no exercise, dining out with my guests for 10 days!

And I have a short-term goal in mind. 2 weeks from now I may have to be in a swimsuit. Like, around people. So that should be immediate enough motivation to keep me on track for a least a little while.

No longer sick, and back up to my pre-sick weight. How will I ever find time to work out while I have company? I can’t just diet; that does NOT work for me, I have to keep my metabolism (and mood!) up with exercise.
I have to figure it out.