get my driver's license

an ad. For a AAA driving school.

I’ll check it out and see if I can get into it.

This will never ever happen.

I had a dream last night.

Where my sister was driving me around. And we were going to King’s Island. And there was a sign that said “King’s Island 2008”. So it was next year. So she probably had her license. Because she will be 16 next year.

I am just too afraid of the other cars. That they will do something stupid. Because, frankly, there are stupid people out there. I don’t trust them. I also don’t trust myself enough to know what to do if they do something stupid.

Slowly and surely, I am driving.

And I am getting better :) I’m still nervous though, but not as much.

And by August 13th, I want to have my license. I want to have at least taken the test.

I’m getting there…

I’m driving. And it’s not so bad.

Maybe this will happend after all :)

Still need my own car though.

I went today and I got my temps again. Which means I can start driving again.

At least I didn’t have to retake the actual test to get your temps. That would have probably sucked. Because I don’t remember anything. They gave me a new book. So at least I can study.

I don’t think I ever put the whole story up here. Just bits and pieces.

And this goal forced me, in a good way, to write it down.

So here it is…

The Story to Why I don’t have my driver’s license.

I am almost 20 years old. When I was 15 and a half, I was about to get my temps when 2 girls from my high school were in a fatal car crash. This scared me so much that I put it off. I didn’t go to the class until I was 17. I had my temps by that point. Then a year went by. And I let them expire. On Feb. 14, 2005, they expired and I never got them renewed, still to this day.

Soon after that, in May, I was about to go get them again. And my uncle was in a fatal car crash. I reacted in the same way as before. I was too scared to drive. I do not trust people on the road. I trust myself, but not others. And this has lead me to here.

I am in my second year of college and I still depend on my parents and friends for rides to places. I can not just “get up and go”. This also means I don’t have a car, but that is another goal all together. {One that involves lack of money}

Next summer I am going to have an internship, either at the Columbus Zoo or the Cincinnati Zoo. Neither have housing {well, the Cincinnati Zoo have housing but you have to pay $100}.

My parents can not drive me to and from Cincinnati or Columbus everyday. To realistically have this internship, I would have to have my own transportation.

Cincinnati is about a half hour away. Columbus is about an hour and a half away.

My parents tried teaching me before, back when I was in the class. It didn’t go good at all. The first time I tried driving on the highway, on my way to work, I broke down in tears after I parked. I did an okay job driving, it was just the experience and the fact that I was very freaked out.

My parents are very supporting, but they’re trying to help.

The internship starts around the last week of May. If I don’t have my license, I’d either have to live in Cincinnati and pay the $100 housing fee. But if the Cincinnati program passes me up, I’d have to pass up the Columbus Zoo program too.

If I don’t have an intership, I’d lose the real world experience I need to go into my field. And, I want to work in either of the zoos. I’ve wanted to do this since I can remember. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to not work with animals.

Losing an intership will put my career on hold, when it’s just starting out.

That’s it…In writing…

You know that time when I said I was going to have my driver’s license by December 2nd?

Remember? Do ya? Do ya?

Well I do.

And guess what?

I still don’t have it. It’s almost December. Almost 3 months since I said I was going to have my permit. Now if I get it, I’ll have to drive in the snow and rain. So far the weather has been perfect.

I may never get this done…

How many still think I don’t have my license? Come on, let’s see those hands!

Well, to those of you who have raised your hands, you’re…

RIGHT

I don’t have my license. Still.

It’s starting to have a _small effect on my social life.

So I now have a timeline.

This Saturday, I am going to reget my permit.

Then, 3 months from that date, I will go take my licences test!

So, if my math/day counting skills are right, I should be back here on the…December 2nd! That’s 12 weeks away from September 9th.

Wish me luck!

Once I get this goal done, I can work more on this goal or this goal

I am almost 19! I “should” have had my lucense 3 years ago, at least 2 years ago. I am a freshman in a good college. My parents, God bless their souls, take me to and from school.

Even though I don’t have a car, at least I should be able to say, “Yeah, I have my license though.”

I think I will go get my permit {which I let expire right before I turned 18} this weekend, so at least I can start driving again.

I just need to read the book, get my temps back, and drive.

My goal is to have them by the time I’m 19, on Feb. 21st.