to have complete paitence

ok, ok – i am trying to remember that even though i am STILL waiting to get home, i have to also enjoy my time here….still tough…gettin through though

okay, well i know the exact day i will be returning to philadelphia… it’s the 22nd of september…. 9 days and a wake-up!!! one would actually think this helps me, but on the other hand, it only has made the last 48 hours drag, like you wouldn’t believe. this gaining a lot of patience thing is harder that i thought. but, i will not falter, i will not give up. breathe deeply mikey, breethe deeply. i just can’t hold my breath yet!

i am returning to philadelphia in about 10-15 days for the first time in over 2 years and it’s totally killin’ me. i can’t sleep, barely eat and don’t know what to do with myself. i am excited the time has come, but now it’s like an eternity before i show up in phila intl’ airport!!
all i would like is to gain some type of patience with the situation actually – to not look so far into the future that i “lose” the next 2 weeks of my life. who knows right?? in these next 2 weeks i could – i dunno – meet someone special, figure out the cure for cancer, or even find 20 bucks on the ground. that is if i’m focused though.
i just realize that i am driving myself batty, and need to convince myself to stop…...

ok i just tried and it’s not working.