reach out spiritually

i’ve always wanted to do this, but recently i’ve taken this personally. meaning, the idea to reach out spiritually has sounded good but i didn’t have enough to follow through. in the past couple of months i’ve investigated new places/practices. pain has definitely been a motivator. well, i found a place that gives me comfort and peace. i’m starting with baby steps and for now its temporary. i can’t handle the idea of being committed. when i don’t go i miss it, and this is new for me. i love this place, even though i don’t talk to anyone, or know anyone, or quite understand everything.