be happy with who I am

that there were still things that I want to change about myself, but I’m sure that I like myself, that I’m pretty cool as I am…yay!

I don’t know what it is about today, but I felt really beautiful. Maybe my hair was just right or something, but even though I stayed in sweats all day and was on my period, I felt really beautiful for some reason. I watched a few movies- love stories, and I realized how loved I am and how much happiness is in my life, and I cried for it. I was really, truly, happy. And that doesn’t happen often enough!

Now how can I get this feeling to stay?

Why is that only other people can see my strengths?

It seems to me that people are always telling me how pretty/beautiful, talented, and trustworthy I am, and yet I’m the only one who doesn’t agree with them.

It’s like, I can feel totally ugly and worthless, and of course, I won’t tell anybody because there’s nothing they can say except “that’s not true.” And it doesn’t help me at all.

I felt fine about myself for a while, but every time I would say something positive about myself, it felt like I was lying to myself. Now I feel like my worthlessness is the real truth.

I don’t understand why I feel so intensely this way and what I can do about it.