improve my chess game by having short term and long term goals taking one step at a time not worrying about outcomes

Tonight, I will play John Ray and the last time I played him he intimidated me. I don t know why this is so cause I have beaten him at least 3 times in the 10 or so games we have played. I don t wish to be afraid of playing him tonight. I want to play well against him and not be concerned whether I win or lose. I have won 1,002 chess games since I started playing chess seriously in March of 2010. When one has won that many games one should have confidence and not really care who wins. Good luck tonight, Joe..take care..joe

i can t believe how poorly im playing. this is a super slump you might say. i just gave up my queen in a game in which i was way ahead and now i will lose the game..dumb, careless, dumb, careless, dumber, more careless.

In an hour and one half, I will be playing chess at the chess club I started in July 2010. I win once in a while and the players who come are better than me and I hate that. This new guy John is now our 2nd best player and I don t know if I can beat him. I can t beat the number one player, either. I must learn to be content with winning once in a while and continue to sponsor this chess club which is good for me, for the library and for the community, also.

after playing over 3,000 chess games both live and on line,honest, someday i will try to check my notebook to see how many of both there are, i have decided to change my style. i have won 905 games being passive, defensive and my opponents now know this about me so i am changing tonight. i am going to be aggressive from now on and let the chess pieces fall where they may. i have beaten all of the live players i have played so i don t need to prove to them that i can beat them. i will have fun, lose, learn to be aggressive which must be more fun anyway. !!

i can t believe how poor i am in chess compared to the live players i play against. i am average playing on line chess .i have studied , practiced, read about chess and yet now i feel as if i will not be able to beat the members of the chess club i have created. i play this defensive style and they have caught onto that idea and attack me . i need to develop an attacking style ,also. i don t have many problems in life and this chess problem bothers me more than anything. i know that s abnormal but that s the type of person i am. my wife says i live in a dream world. read my goal ..coping with living with a genius.. and you will see why i have the luxury to worry about my chess games. i need to accept the fact that i have to work hard to improve at chess. take care..joe

after monday s 7th loss in a row to curtis, and last nights 2 bad losses to john, i realize that in order to improve at chess, i must study, work, practice much, much harder than the average chess player if i want to improve. i do want to improve so i will work harder at the game.

nearly 3 years ago, i decided to take chess seriously. i have won 894 matches and lost over 2,000. those numbers are hard to believe but they are true. i don t count the losses thinking it would help my confidence to only record the wins and i still think that s the best way to help myself.
recently, many of the players i have been playing against have begun to beat me too regularly. my skills seemed to have leveled off. i have trouble remembering things which i feel i should remember. i will work on this problem. it is also frustrating to accept the fact that i study chess whereas most of my opponents don t study much. george ,my friend, studies not at all and yet he has improved the most in my opinion. i am a chess player win or lose. i should be asking these opponents to help me by telling me ways to improve my game rather then pouting and getting discouraged when i lose. on mondays, i play curtis at mcdonalds and i used to win about one out of ever three games with him but he is now beating me regularly. i think he studies. tonight i play in the local library with the chess club which i have started. i hope i have fun tonight and learn a lot.

i dislike the fact that so many players that i know put little time into the study and practice of chess and yet beat me frequently and at times so easily. what if they were to know about my slow progress in chess, so what if ? i need to say that often when a what if..thought comes into my head. i will stay with this game that i love despite my record.

it takes courage to play chess . i guess that s why so many people refuse to play it. i have had to have courage to keep playing those good players and getting beat, courage to play a 14 yr. old prodigy who kept beating me, courage to keep playing people whom i helped with their game and who passed me. now, i have to have the courage to face the fact that i am improving in my game. it takes a strange kind of courage to face those whom think they can easily beat you and show them you have improved. i will face this courage problem tonight, and tomorrow and everyday that i play chess now. i am not afraid to improve. it must be easier to have that courage than it was to face all that losing all the time. i have been working harder on my chess game and now expect to win when i play. i know that if others worked as hard at the game as i do, they would be better than me but they don t want to work that hard. i am the tortoise in that old fable of the tortoise and the hare. go joe.. take care..joe

i have heard that the BOY SCOUTS OF AMERICA have added chess as a merit badge. i will volunteer to help scouts learn the game. as i do so, i have to be prepared to answer this question. why is it that you are not very good at chess, even though you study, play, and practice the game frequently ? it s hard for me to answer that question but the best i can come up with is the game is hard for me. i can help others learn how to play but i can t teach them how to win. i enjoy spreading this game to others and watching them progress and pass me in skill in a short period of time. i am still studying, practicing and playing and hope to get better. i am still below average as a player . my goal is to win a match every once in awhile which i do. take care..joe