create the soundtrack to my life

“The Returns”

Alone, once more alone as the memories weave and fade away
Separation mocks me frustration consumes me
Inspiration has grown cold, even as the longing renews

Desperate, I return to you. Broken, I return to you
We circle over and over. But still I return to you

What will it take to escape you? What will it take to escape you?
Is this what you wanted, to see me humbled
Is this what you asked for, the final word

Desperate, I return to you. Broken, I return to you
We circle over and over. But still I return to you

I would tear my eyes out to never see your face
But all of these scars can never be erased
Choke on your words that have left me bleeding
And may your tears burn

We circle over and over…still I return…I return

Desperate I return to you.
Broken, I return to you
We circle over and over.
But still I return to you

What will it take to escape you
What will it take to escape

“The Pot”

Who are you to wave your finger?
You must have been outta your head
Eye hole deep in muddy waters
You practically raised the dead

Rob the grave to snow the cradle
Then burn the evidence down
Soapbox house of cards and glass so
Don’t go tossin’ your stones around

You must have been high
You must have been high
You must have been

Foot in mouth and head up ass-hole
Whatcha talkin’ ‘bout?
Difficult to dance ‘round this one
‘til you pull it out, boy

You must have been so high
You must have been so high

Steal, borrow, refer, save your shady inference
Kangaroo done hung the jury with the innocent

Now you’re weeping shades of cozened indigo
Got lemon juice up in your eye, eye
When you pissed all over my black kettle

You must have been high high
You must have been high high

Who are you to wave your finger?
So full of it
Eye balls deep in muddy waters
Fuckin’ hypocrite

Liar, lawyer; mirror show me, what’s the difference?
Kangaroo done hung the guilty with the innocent

Now you’re weeping shades of cozened indigo
Got lemon juice up in your eye, eye
When you pissed all over my black kettle
You must’ve been…

So who are you to wave your finger?
Who are you to wave your fatty fingers at me?
You must have been out your mind

Weepin’ shades of indigo
Trapped without a reason
Weepin’ shades of indigo

Liar, lawyer; mirror, for you, what’s the difference?
Kangaroo be stoned. He’s guilty as the government

Now you’re weeping shades of cozened indigo
Got lemon juice up in your eye, eye
Now when you pissed all over my black kettle

You must’ve been
High
High
High
High

Eyeballs deep in muddy waters
Your balls deep in muddy waters
Ganja Please
You must have been out your mind

“My Curse”

I watched you walk away
Helpless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?

Your silence haunts me
But still I hunger for you

This is my curse (the wanting)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the needing)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?

Still I want
And still I ache
But still I wait
To see you again

Dying, inside, these walls (2x)

And I see your face in these tears, In these fears
And I see your face…

There is love (8x)

“Come Back To Me”

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you’re becoming someone else
Don’t recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you
You say you’re leaving as you look away
I know there’s really nothing left to say
Just know I’m here whenever you need me, I will wait for you

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you…come back to me

Take your time, I won’t go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I’ll keep your things right where you left ‘em, I’ll be here for you.

Oh, and I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you…come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I’ll be right here, waiting to see
You find you…come back to me

And I can’t get close if you’re not there
I can’t get inside if there’s no soul there
I can’t fix you, I can’t save you
It’s something you’ll have to do.

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you…come back to me
Come back to me

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you…come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need.
I’ll be right here, waiting to see.
You find you…come back to me

When you find you…come back to me
When you find you…come back to me
You find you…come back to me

“In My Next Life”

In my next life I won’t cuss so much
I won’t ever touch that first cigarette
In my next life I’ll stay away from bad boys
I’ll listen to that voice inside of my head
I won’t wake up and look in the mirror wondering what I did last night

But in this life I want to have a good time
I wanna live fast
Hit it as hard as anybody has
‘Til they turn out the lights
If I get to come back I promise you that I’m gunna walk a straighter line
In my next life

I’ll keep my shirt on when I’m at Mardi Gras
Gettin’ loose and free
In my next life I won’t do body shots
I won’t think I’ve got to try everything
I’m gunna be a little angel who gets her kicks flying right

But in this life I want to have a good time
I wanna live fast
Hit it as hard as anybody has
‘Til they turn out the lights
If I get to come back I promise you that I’m gunna walk a straighter line
In my next life

But in this life I want to have a good time
I wanna live fast
Hit it as hard as anybody has
Til’ they turn out the lights
If I get to come back I promise you that I’m gunna walk a straighter line
In my next life

I’ll keep my shirt on when I’m at Mardi Gras
If I come back…

“Universe & U”

A fire burns
Water comes
You cool me down
When I’m cold inside
You are warm and bright
You know you are so good for me
With your child’s eyes
You are more than you seem
You see into space
I see in your face
The places you’ve been
The things you have learned
They sit with you so beautifully

You know there’s no need to hide away
You know I tell the truth
We are just the same
I can feel everything you do
Hear everything you say
Even when you’re miles away
Cause I am me, the universe and you

Just like stars burning bright
Making holes in the night
We are building bridges

You know

When you’re on your own
I’ll send you a sign
Just so you know
I am me, the universe and you

“Grace”
I’m on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Dont know how
but Ill get by
Slowly pull myself together

Theres no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I wont fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
Ive lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

“Almost Lovers”
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, ever forget
These images

I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

“He can only Hold her”

He can only hold her for so long
The lights are on but noone’s home
She’s so vacant Her soul is taken
He is what she’s running from
How can he have her heart
When it got stole
Though he tries to pacify her
Whats inside her never dies
Even if she’s content in his warmth
She gets pained with urgency
Urgent kisses
The miss misses
The man that he longs to be
Now how can he have her heart
When it got stole
So he tries to pass it by
Cause what’s inside’ll never die
As he tries to pacify her
Cause whats inside her never dies

“The Fear you Wont Fall”

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
Behind me air’s getting thin but I’m trying
I’m breathing in
Come find me
It hasn’t felt like this before
It hasn’t felt like home before you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
I know you’re scared that I’ll soon be over it
That’s part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won’t fall
It hasn’t felt like this before
It hasn’t felt like home before you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone
But I wish you’d call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
Can’t get my mind off of you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you