be brave

The hardest part is getting myself into situations where I know I might have to be brave. I’m always rather reluctant to make the effort. However, when I’m faced with a difficult situation, bravery comes naturally.
The past weeks have taught me that I can face a lot more on my own than I thought. They have also showed me the limits of my strength (I always get sick when under too much stress) and how much I appreciate people who support me in difficult situations.
I’m not always brave, but I have gained confidence in my ability to be brave and I’m sure that it will influence a lot of my future decisions, so I’m marking this goal as done.

I’m making progress on this. I am admitting my vulnerabilities.
If I have to hold a presentation and stumble over the words, I take a break, smile (which is kind of like admitting as opposed to not acknowledging anything) and carry on.
I now sometimes push the boundaries with people I want to get closer to by honestly talking about myself, so they can open up and talk about themselves if they like to. (I used to be quite the opposite.)
I’m going to Portugal alone for a language course, even though I’m apprehensive about not being able to communicate very well.

Think about it. What’s so incredibly brave about pretending that your insecurities simply don’t exist? The hardest thing is failing miserably. And the worst failure is not to face the situation in the first place. Facing a situation is usually called brave, but running from it truly seems braver. It should be practiced more :D.

^{I’ve always liked Oscar’s paradoxies. They’re starting to rub off on me.}

Anyway, I’m off to acting cowardly. See you all when I’ve cleared away that heap of books obstructing my view.

^{I am practicing a bit of bravery as well, though, by not writing poems like the good girl I should be :D}

brave today.
Whenever I have to present myself, talking in front of a group or camera, I have to repress the impulse to stay away or to run and hide. I actually bring myself to face these situations far more often than absolutely necesary, but each time remains a struggle.

I’ve written an e-mail I should’ve written a long time ago. I’m having big trouble communicating with the people I do voluntary work with.
It seems we all like to avoid problems and can’t seem to successfully get any work done. This has been massively affecting our work for at least half a year. I can’t believe I’ve been avoiding this for so long… I’m the one officially in charge, so I feel that the major part of the blame is on me.
I’ve written my colleagues an e-mail, apologising, trying to clarify these things and asking for their opinion on things. I hope I won’t be perceived as… weird, writing such an e-mail more or less out of the blue. It’s probably silly to think tht way. I’m glad I put an end to my procrastination and conflict avoindance. I truly hope this gets us to talk and that I won’t fall back into the old pattern.

I want to be brave enough to openly be able to admit my vulnerability. I’m trying, but am not very good at it. I’m too scared of embarassment and rejection.