become a mother

I was over my cousin’s house yesterday seeing her new apartment. She had also just brought a new baby into the world. A beautiful little girl. I was holding her all night thinking how it would be nice if I had a baby. A child that would be one of the very few people that I’d show unconditional love and affection to. I know it can be rough sometimes being a mother because it hard babysitting my sister’s kids, at times they are not well behaved. I wonder will that time ever come when I will be emotionally and mentally ready to raise a child of my own. While holding her baby, I would imagine she was mine. As of now, I am not prepared for the major responsibility, but hopefully, that day will come. :)